Feeling Lonely...

It is a good Saturday, with a cloudy day and ended up raining in the afternoon, which I have spent most of the time sleeping right after my work. Yesterday night, was fine, not what I expected though, but yeah, once in a while it does happened. Really sorry that it happened, and many thanks to those who came to support the night (you know who you are, peepz!!!).

I had a weird dream just now while taking my nap. I have not been having this kind of dream for quite some times, or should I say not this at all. It really brings back some good ol'memories, which I have before. In it, I saw someone I knew and have not met for quite some times, whom I have been together with. I know, is weird right, it never happened before, but it just happened so suddenly. I was so into the dream, which I hope I will never wake up. Ok, it was never a dirty one, so please get rid of those dirty-minded of your's please.

I have been in this state of my life for like soon-to-be 8 months, when I have never feel lonely before, but not at the moment, right after the dream, which it just makes me think my world is never complete yet.

I used to think that I am happy with what I have today, I am glad I have my own freedoms and spaces, which I have been dying of all the while, even though I am in a relationship before. But now, I just realize that, there is a missing part in me to make my puzzle complete.

For how long I have to go on, I will never knows, as I do not have a choice to choose or I have the power to control it. Every thing, has been decided by Him. I know that He is fair to every one. He just wants us to look around ourselves instead of just putting up the last piece of our puzzle just by, "Nah, take it." We must work for it, as there is no free lunch in this world. Every thing comes with a price.

I have been very stubborn most of the time, I have been acting as I am all good with it, but now, I think I am lost and kind of struggling to find it. Is it that when you get something, you have to let goes something else, you just have to choose, which one you want?

I just wish I have an answer for it. For now, I just hope that tomorrow will be a better day, as I do not really like this kind of emotions in me. It just makes me slack. When it goes around my head, it will be hell of a night for me.